11/9/00 11:36:17 PM

it was very nice on sunday and the test didn't go too well and work before it was nice again on wednesday when we saw the technicaly and emotionally awe enspiring requiem for a dream which turned out to be much more of a date movie than i thought while watching it and we held hands and came back to my place and we sat on the sofa for hours and hours and i ended up spilling my guts and telling the truth the whole truth and nothing but the truth and it was very good being so free and so comfortable with someone who i was very interested in being free and comfortable with and she stayed the night and was a good girl and was delivered to her doorstep in the exact same condition as when she left it and before going to sleep ("you'll know" she said) i had begun to tell her one last story about my time with daria, actually the time not too long ago when daria was on my mind and i saw another moving film that reminded me that it is so easy to take the easy way out and not work at something that could be so worthwhile because i'm waiting for something that i think might be right around the corner and its easy to "just don't call" so i'm here tonight too tired to go out to a going away party because of java hacking and another test and i'm remembering her telling me the exact same thing daria told me two years ago in 10 days - that i shouldn't wait because we'd just go through the exact same thing again; interesting, as i'm going through the exact same thing - again but i feel very different about it, like maybe i've grown, maybe i've grown up, maybe stuff just doesn't feel like it used to - which is good - good for las vegas this weekend with jason, good for my work, and good for things that i know i'm not finished with yet.

link: stuff that sucks, sucks.

on the deck: fatboy slim's halfway between the gutter and the stars.

reading: teach yourself cgi programming with perl in a week by eric herrmann, as well as this month's wired, next month's wallpaper and dwell #2.