4/19/01 11:51:03 PM

re-entry; interesting, thought provoking, sanity questioning, deep thinking, plan making, excitement that's easy to talk and write about when i'm not in it - it feels like forever (and sounds like too, doesn't it?) when i'm all up in it but i digress because i am here and did not burn up - too much - and have already said that it is natural - the inevetable come down from (oh so) intense highs - centered is... good and centered and speaking to stephen for an hour and a half this evening about our respective psyches (in more ways than one) and our upcoming couple of months, him hearing about the sacred inbetweenus between her and me (which is in between him and me also) and excitement and hope for the unknown that we are both entering alone in his way and me in mine and together as we discussed our desires and dreams for our dj gig and our crews' consolodation of portfolio and the places we'd like to go and the things we'd like to do and he quoted me: "right now is it, no past, no future - this is it" which was most appropriate and is appropriate to every (and especially to this) situation, the ones that were, the ones that are and the ones that will (oh my god i can't wait for them to) be and all these conversations falling in line with each other reminds me that i was *already* on a certain road, a road of building and creating and exploring the work that a group of people who respected and loved each other could push out into the world, when others' roads began converging with mine - and the beauty the life/art/work/god that revealed it self in our building in our creation was always there and for all situations, with all of us and we "have been rendered devoid of choice, if we try to be rational, we can't, its not rational - its a gift that" is freely given that takes us places we could never go alone.

link: inthehead.com, updated, the new remedi project is up and all sorts of wonderful news in the musical world at astralwerks. also, one might like to sign up for the groovysites mailing list.

on the deck: lennny kravitz's mama said and the soon to be in town autechre.

reading: borges' labyrinths. here's what i wish i was reading.