3/17/01 8:19:23 PM

hanging with stephen and justin last night was great, as was time with mom and nancy yesterday and today, and totally looking forward to seeing amon tobin (and shiala, who called after 2 months to see about getting a ride home after the show) here in a bit but i haven't been able to stop thinking about wednesday's conversation with casey, beverly and diana as he broke down the future of our company as well as the future of our jobs there which has had the unfortunate effect of making me feel extremely apathetic about my job and has woken me up to the fact that this "dot com downturn" is for real (no shit) and the thought of being here in nocal without a job and unable to pay my rent fills me with unimaginable fear, as slinging coffee and building a couple of little sites for folks ain't gonna cut it like it used to and so "what now?" i wonder as i have no idea when anything's going to happen or if i'll have a little something to cushion the blow and i wonder if i should go now or wait to get "severed" and all these other things one wonders when even though one makes a very good living one is still living somewhat paycheck to paycheck - so the waiting game i've been playing has bumped me to a more challenging level and there have been a few new players added and oh shit i'm not very good at this game but thankfully when this game and this fear become justifyable, they become a lot easier to deal with.

link: dig the crazy swedes while you sell your books at amazon, who i've recently become a big fan of. also, one might like to sign up for the groovysites mailing list.

on the deck: tortoise remixed.

reading: o'reilly's information architecture for the world wide web and the excellent the elegant universe by brian greene. here's what i wish i was reading.