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9/25/00 11:30:08 PM

i almost couldn't bring myself to write this as the dichotomy of keeping a record of my thoughts and actions out in the world (wide web) and my taste for the records of others versus the meat-space (as stephen so gingerly put it) and our interactions there hit me like a ton of bricks at fray on friday and then again at peter's cocktail party on saturday - how incredibly odd to be in a room full of people who i know; i know their work, i know their interests and beliefs, i know some of their dirty secrets, and yet we have never met and however exciting this was to me, both the getting to know their online representation of themselves and the possibility of getting to know them in more of a human way (because its people who matter...), i realized that i am a fish out of water and tradional social rules still applied no matter how "new media" and have only begun to analyze and understand the meaning of and behind all of this and once again i question my desire to take part in this collective performance art piece (though i can't help but get giggle at the stupidness and arte noir quality of it all) and i suppose that this is (one of my) art(s) and i'll stage it and play it and paint it for all its worth and be glad that so much less bad has come of it than good.

link: just found out that rebecca blood, (a guest at both events that i didn't have the strength to introduce myself to) on the history of weblogs.