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11:56 PM 6/12/00

hello and welcome to an evening of costantly shifting moods and feelings!

after the haight street fair, the big kahoona (which sucked), and a picnic dinner looking over the bay in sausalito (not to mention an excellent picnic recipe!) i saw daria off back to dallas. i had a wonderful weekend and was missing her even before she left.

i've had to say goodbye to that girl entirely too many times.

she hasn't been the only girl i've watched fly away... when nicola left just after new years of '94 i remember how big a void she left here. it wasn't quite like that this time, as circumstances were unbelievably different then, but i've been left feeling a bit lonely and sentimental today.

in *different* news, i think i figured it all out today (and i mean all of it, too) but its a little too long and boring to go into here. knowing now, like i do, what its all about hasn't brought the peace and understanding i was expecting. instead i'm feeling anxious about the mission i'm supposed to be carrying out here on earth...

then a very nice boy at the coffee shop complemented me on my "perfect shirt, and perfect hair (!)", and i got to thinking there was hope for me yet.

link: i haven't had any time to surf the net lately, and i don't care!