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the carribean, in the pool, blonde hair, water volleyball, she was a bitch. the cocktail party, the parental introduction, the plans, i thought it was a famous model. dinner, conversation, which one did i want? walking to the bar, the ride back from our driver, talking till one, then getting busted. sneaking out, "she's 'pissed'", tasting that pussy, her angry father, on back home. on back home. the phone calls, the letters (a foot tall stack). gatwick, ripped jeans and white t-shirt, "may i kiss you?" a train ride, an off license, a bottle. more parental introductions, but first, a movie, walking, kissing on brighton beach, "goddamn!" nighttime, ignored friends, passionate kisses, (slight drunkenness). scattered memories now, a blowjob, london, a party, being alone, shelley's shoe store, mcdonalds, and don't forget the chronic hat and dr. dre. a lamborghini, sleeping in, photographs, time passing all too quickly. as much lovemaking, without making love but... "i love you." heathrow, tears, goodbyes, a bloody finger and pink floyd. impatience, drugs, cigarettes, christmas. the airport with leela, a zippo, a whole bottle of rum drunk on the ride home. sleep, friends, don carters, "me?", "yes, you." las vegas, seperate rooms, a kiss on maggie's cheek. ceaser's the armanis, our picture with elvis. kissing, talking, smoking, sex (my first time). the plane, a lady buying us drinks, cognac, a 12$ cab ride home. getting woken up after candellit love to pay for the party, then the party. wildness, drinking cops, marijuana, a guy named hugh. no electricity, reunions, inibreation. recovery, sicness, a hug from behind and a kiss on the ear. departure, tears, home alone, mom saying she knew. three weeks, "the plan", a missed stop at haversham. "honey, i'm home", finding her home, little remembered but the smell.
unfinished stories.