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8:54 AM 3/23/00

i got my car back yesterday, after it rotting in the shop since feb 4. now all i have to do is figure out how i'm going to continue to pay for it; and speaking of paying for it, i have money in the bank, credit on my card, cash in my wallet, a bucket of change by my front door, and only two quarters. the dryer downstairs requires three.

jason b. and i listened to dave mathews (ugh!) the other day, a song about getting directions from a girl, then turning to ask if she wanted to get a cup of coffee and finding her gone. reminds me of the girl from the subway in new york last july. why are these moments so memorable? what do i find that i need in them? why can't i forget?

probably the 10 most intense seconds of my life.

it also reminds me of the girl i loved when i was six or seven that i hadn't thought of in 10 years, before last saturday. i don't remember any of it, save for imagined impressions of color and very blurry images. it was so real that it amazes me, and i wish i could remember her name. i wish i could remember something about it. i think i'd rather think about that than think about shit i go through now.

link: calamondin.com, a newly discovered weblog (that i really like)