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god this waiting is so exciting
i'm too calm to pace - it seems pointless
i'm patient waiting for it to begin
it? i don't know what it is though
i don't want to waste now by
wanting it to be over
but i'm so bored - i am nothing
no plans no goals no her no money
all i have is myself, and time
lots and lots of time
time to sit and think and write
crap crap and more crap.
a new start is so refreshing
which is why i haven't gone nuts
the future looks good but now just looks
my mind is blank - feeling nothing
thinking nothing saying nothing
being nothing is not so bad
it has nothing, but potential
potential to be anything and everything
its cool 'cause right now, now?
i don't need plans or goals or her or money
i wanted to sit and think and write
and i got it (crap)
i think i should think and feel differently
oh yeah! i remembered!
i do have something...
i have hope...