Tuesday, December 9th, 2008
A New Earth
I finally, after months and months, finished A New Earth a book I first put on my list years ago and which had been recommended to me over and over again since then. I believe I got a lot out of it, especially towards the end, when the author talked about the three ideal states of being, enjoyment, enthusiasm, and acceptance, and I was realizing yesterday during a boring all hands meeting that I couldn't stop thinking about landlord, EZ-Pass, freelance work and other, more personal problems and that I don't spend very much time in any of those states (unless, of course, someone else is involved). I am not entirely sure how to change it except to try to be constantly aware (an awareness I glimpsed briefly when I stepped back a bit to realize it) but I think that my state of mind, my not being enjoyed or enjoyable, enthusiastic or even accepting is shining through and affecting every area of my life. Perhaps I need to flip the book back over to the beginning and read it again. There's something to get in there (I was given the book for a reason) but obviously I still haven't gotten it yet.
Today is my mother's birthday. Happy birthday, mama! I love you and I hope you have another wonderful year.