3/3/01 8:34:44 PM

after being told i was completely out of my mind - in a good way and noticing signs saying that my work here was only just begun, as well as an email from misty with whom it was never the same again until i called and we caught up and she let me in on her "little secret", i got another email that implored me to make another call and i heard d tell me she was broken, she was finished, she was leaving, perhaps for good(?), good for her and good for me as well as acting on that fabulous irrationality, that fantasy she started in my mind that made me realize so much up to and including that she, at this point ("so different and so new"), is a symbol, a goal, an ideal i was working toward anyway and her leaving reminds me that my objective is not the (now even further away) light at the end of the proverbial tunnel, but the jouney ever towards it (as i don't really want what i have or what is handed to me, i want that that i continue to work for, the wanting makes me want it more), the means as opposed to the end and still i am reenergized, for more, new and different work, ever increasing financial freedom, copious amounts of reading and learning, and seeing the work of, keeping in contact with and spending time with old, semi-new and new new friends, like today's enjoyable breakfast and conversation with peter, dinner and more enjoyable conversation with jill, and now a movie with beverly then the money mark show with the crew, as well as the opening last night, while smiling as i dreamt of a greyhound bus to marin (which is cute *anytime* and 'cause this ain't over yet; but waiting patiently for things to fall together like they always do and perhaps my talking of leaving inspired her to go like her taking care of herself right now has made me looking into doing the same for me and oh my goodness there is so much going on tonight, shows and films and people...) and am, like i was saying before i was so lovingly interrupted, continuing on.

link: new dailys, elegant hack and the very interesing kumo. also, one might like to sign up for the groovysites mailing list.

on the deck: trans am's futureworld and u2's joshua tree.

reading: jeff veen's the art and science of web design, the excellent the elegant universe by brian greene, and wired. here's what i wish i was reading.