1/14/01 10:50:38 AM

coming home from the airport after dropping mom and marci off i was trying really hard to keep the car at 70 mph on that particular stretch of road, it was raining, it was a saturday night, cops were out and all that and was somewhat concerned that i might be driving too fast when a car passed at over 100 mph and startled me and i remembered back to the story i like to tell of having drunk a case and a half (that's 36 cans, or more) of budweiser and a pint bottle of tequila and a couple of wine coolers for dessert (after smoking pot all) day and then driving my girlfriend and best friend from one end of the dallas north tollroad to the other in the pouring rain at 110 miles an hour chain smoking so i wouldn't pass out and spinning so badly that i couldn't close my eyes to kiss her goodnight or i would have thrown up and i was so grateful that i didn't kill anyone then or any of the other times i did similar things and then started thinking about how i didn't need to be anywhere that badly and about people who speed (like i sped that night) are acting out a deathwish and thank god that i have so much to live for today like my mom's trip to see me (my relationship with her) and looking for furniture (i have a place to live) and getting an email about a party (i have friends) and thinking about useful navigation and organization schemes for a website (i have and can keep a job) and countless other little things that would be so useless and unimportant if i had died and taken some people with me on a rainy night in '94 when i was seventeen years old.

link: i've got my daily browsing, but today i'm getting my saturday surf on at harrumph and zeldman.com. also, one might like to sign up for the groovysites mailing list.

on the deck: supermodified (i'm dying for some new discs).

reading: finally finished confederacy of dunces by john kennedy toole, and started generation x by douglas coupland but someone ran off with it, still reading one's premier issue. here's what i wish i was reading.