10/20/00

unfortunately, i was disappointed, but i learned a great deal and have remembered that i have lots and lots of work to do and that my priorities and what i place importance on (that lots and lots of work refered to before) need to be first in my mind - this is a work in progress - always a work in progress and a learning experience and i also learned that my name of evan gives me a clever mind, good business judgment, a sense of responsibility, and an appreciation of the finer things of life but i am serious-minded and not inclined to make light of things even in little ways, and in my younger years i had more mature interests than others my age and home and family mean a great deal to me and it is natural that i should desire the security of a peaceful, settled home environment where i can enjoy the companionship of family and friends and whatever i set out to accomplish i do my very best to complete in accordance with what i consider to be right and in the home i assume my responsibilities capably, having the self-confidence to form my own opinions and make my own decisions and others can rely on me; once i have given my word i will do my utmost to fulfil a responsibility; however, there is a tendency to be a little too independent in my thinking and it is difficult for me to accept the help of others when i should; due to my strong sense of responsibility, i could experience worry and mental turmoil through assuming more responsibility than i should and friction could arise through others feeling that i was interfering with their rights and privileges, even though i am only trying to help and what this means is i am being true to myself when i stay home on a friday night to catch up on reading and that i really am still doing the right thing, as i'm spending a bit too much time thinking that i'm not.

link: captain low-rez and the pixel of destiny!

on the deck: actually, on the radio, just today: we're not gonna take it and insane in the brain