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1-24-00

i am afraid.

i am afraid of one, two, or all of three things: that i'm going to lose something i had, that i'm not going to get something i want, or that i'm not going to get something i need.

it makes me wonder though; what is it that i want? and when is it that want crosses over into need? i don't think any of it matters because what i'm losing, i never really had in the first place.

it's amazing how bad nothing hurts.